Failure is my friend

Hey guys,

Well, Christmas is now over. I had a great one and I hope you did too. I am happy but sad to see the season end.

This is a blog about my weight loss journey so let me up date you on that or lack there of.

I can sit here and type my one million excuses on why I haven't stayed on track but I'll save you the sob story and just be REAL with you--I didn't feel like keeping up w it bc I didn't want to miss out on stuffing my face with all the great holiday foods. Do I regret it? Yes and no, Yes bc now I feel like crap and fatty mcfat. No bc man all the food tasted so good.

Tomorrow we are living for a mini vacay to NC to my boyfriend's mothers house--where I will continue to stuff my face. Then, Tuesday the 2nd it's back on track for me. I want to lose 10 lbs by April so I can look good at the Chili Cook Off. I will take the first week to get back on track with Herbal life and find a happy medium between eating healthy and losing weight w that. Then if the first week goes well I will make my schedule for incorporating Insanity into the mix.

Wish me luck y'all! And I'll see you in the new year!

XOXO,

Juana

PS come follow my main blog for my weight loss journey: Goodbye Fat,Hello Skinny

My thoughts and rambles

The last few days my attitude has been nothing short of "bitchy." Excuse my french. I am lashing out towards people bc of my own self hate for myself.....   I am so unhappy with where I am weight wise that it is really starting to get to me. I know what I need to do, I know what I should do but here I am doing nothing. I have lost 16 lbs from Insanity and gained some of it back bc of my own laziness. I start it and then I stop bc well.... no real reason just that I grow tired of doing it. I also just love to over eat. I LOOOVE food. That's my biggest obstacle--food. It will be the death of me.

See I am no fool and I am not in denial, I know my faults and I own them. Most people would not. I am not making excuses or trying to justify my actions. I know all this is my fault.

But here is my promise to myself..... I WILL do better. I will lose this weight. And I will put forth an effort.

I plan on organizing my whole day right down to what I go to bed. I will make a binder of schedule sheets and stay on track. And I will pray to God to help me on this journey bc the last few times I tried I know that part of me failing was due to me not taking him a long on my journey.


So here is a new and improved me in 2013!!

I will share with you journey. This won't be pretty but it will be honest. This isn't going to be a blog where I lie to you and say I am staying on track and feeling great and candy canes and rainbows about it. When I indulge I will let you know, when I hate myself I will let you know, when I do good I will let you and so on and so on. Do you get my point?

thanks for listening who even knows if anyone reads this? I just know that I need to share this somewhere with anyone!


XOXO,