My thoughts and rambles

The last few days my attitude has been nothing short of "bitchy." Excuse my french. I am lashing out towards people bc of my own self hate for myself.....   I am so unhappy with where I am weight wise that it is really starting to get to me. I know what I need to do, I know what I should do but here I am doing nothing. I have lost 16 lbs from Insanity and gained some of it back bc of my own laziness. I start it and then I stop bc well.... no real reason just that I grow tired of doing it. I also just love to over eat. I LOOOVE food. That's my biggest obstacle--food. It will be the death of me.

See I am no fool and I am not in denial, I know my faults and I own them. Most people would not. I am not making excuses or trying to justify my actions. I know all this is my fault.

But here is my promise to myself..... I WILL do better. I will lose this weight. And I will put forth an effort.

I plan on organizing my whole day right down to what I go to bed. I will make a binder of schedule sheets and stay on track. And I will pray to God to help me on this journey bc the last few times I tried I know that part of me failing was due to me not taking him a long on my journey.


So here is a new and improved me in 2013!!

I will share with you journey. This won't be pretty but it will be honest. This isn't going to be a blog where I lie to you and say I am staying on track and feeling great and candy canes and rainbows about it. When I indulge I will let you know, when I hate myself I will let you know, when I do good I will let you and so on and so on. Do you get my point?

thanks for listening who even knows if anyone reads this? I just know that I need to share this somewhere with anyone!


XOXO,